Teh' Boredom

This... Is maybe my first post of the year. Yes. I think. You should better check the previous post 'cause I couldn't bother to check it while typing this.

Basically, everything in the past posts were lies.

Kidding. XD

I'm pretty bored actually. Wanting to sleep but also trying to have shower at the same time.
...
I don't want to sleep during shower. =_="

Let's just get the shower done first.

Ja mata~

Monologue: 19.12.10

It's midnight...
And I am lying on sofa in the living room, covered by thin blanket.
I don't have my own bed :P Well... What do you expect from a family living in a small rented house? Hah.
Things may be like this until mid-next year.
What I want to convey is some people do not know what kind of life I'm living - I'm just your average person, with a father that has just finished serving the state's army, a mother who is a dedicated housewife, and siblings who are still studying.
...
And I'm very happy with the way we are right now; I couldn't ask for more. I really appreciate and thankful for everything so far, every experience counts.
... I can't think straight now.
I feel something very heavy is placed upon my shoulders. Being the eldest child of the family, I know that it is up to me to handle all of my family's responsibilities when my father does not have the strength to do so. Somehow, right now, I kinda get a glimpse of what my father feels of taking care of the family.

...
I can't continue anymore.

Good night.
Especially to- my one and only family.

Rush, rush.

It's time to go to Sabah. Finally, I'm driving there! XD

Decision, decision...

I'm such a loser today! T.T

That great oppurtunity was lost because of my self-worthlessness! (I wanted to curse myself using 'those' words, but nevermind. Fuck me)

I really don't have anything more to say. Fuck me (I shoulda go to the FML site)

I wonder if it is worth crying :/ hmm...

Oyasumi~

p.s: I wanna scream her name on top of my lungs!

'Twas fun!

Uh huh, football fun day, that's the reason.

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I got a blank mind right now, but I wanna write something.

Something along the lines of don't get your hopes over something that is very uncertain.
But, the problem is, I don't know what is that 'uncertain' entity. Future life, perhaps?

I just can't feel any emotion.

Ja ne~