The fifth turn.

Fifth on driving lesson waiting list. Sucks, isn't it? Still practising on parking the car though :P

Enjoying life as who I am.

Let's see... September, October, November, December and January. Five months I've been thinking about her. And it's very when I look back through those times.

In September I admired her.
In October I was obsessed with her.
In November I wanted to forget about her.
In December I thought about her.
In January I looked at her.

I really don't have an exciting life.

Nevermind, let's focus on other things instead.
Tennis has become a part of my life. Yes, I'm becoming a tennis player now, and I want to aim for ATP rankings. Dream on. XD

Yeah, right. But nothing will stop me from becoming a tennis player, except financial crisis, time and tennis elbow. Otherwise, I'm going fine and A-OK.

Turnover of events.

I'm surprised of the development. I sense all lovey-dovey stuff going on around me. Maybe it's because Valentine's Day is approaching, or because of love season affecting the people at JIS?

Whatever things going on, I'm still the same old me.

"From he who is far away. And you're his punishment ;-)" is what I've wanted to say.

What a great day!

She was very close to me this morning. That's all! :D

Hungry and not sleepy.

Day and night are contrast to each other. So are my today events. I was very sleepy during the day (emphasis: SLEEPY) and now, I'm heavily awake.
Totally opposite from yesterday's night.

Whatever. ( <-- this word has some bad memories within it. I used to refrain myself from using this word and hearing it being said, but hey! I'm over it now :D)

21:31 and one bar of battery left. When will it run out?

I wanna type more but I don't have any idea. -_-"
Oh yeah, tommorow is casual clothes day for JIS, a charity event to raise money for the victims of the Haiti earthquake. I think I'm going to wear my white shirt and jeans, but I'm not sure about my footwear...

21:38, still with one bar left. I want to recharge the battery soon so I can have peaceful slumber! T_T

Right now I'm listening to Reason by Fonogenico, the first ending theme of xxxHolic.

The muscle in my right arm still hurts from tennis. I was trying to learn topspin serve last week, but what I got from there was a slice serve. Yes, a solid but not powerful slice serve. Gotta use that as my second serve.

Shichihentakki Shijou Shugi by Kotoko is in my ears~ I love the song! XD

Anyway, back to tennis, I want to improve my backhand slice return technique which I discovered last week too - one that can put heavy sidespin on the ball regardless what kind of shot I play. So far I can do it with drop shot only.

21:55, low battery warning, and time to recharge!

I'm tired from typing. Oyasumi nasai.

The end of the week.

Dear blogg,

For this whole week, starting from last Monday until now, a lot of depressing items bombarded me. I kinda forgot what actually really happened, but there was one moment that told me to change who I am.
However, to change oneself is not easy. I tried to get myself break out of my shell, and it was (and still is) very daunting and mentally challenging - at least I saw a tiny bit of progress, and that keep me composed for a while. :)

Moreover, I am too sleepy to write anymore. Oyasumi nasai.

Hey, not an afternoon of migraine :D

The feeling of cold, conditioned air flowing around my body. Ahh~

It feels like a paradise after jogging around the field eight times.

So what? I just need to release my mind-aching thoughts (although I'm still feeling dizzy...).
Hmm... Let's go for dinner.

The morning pics.

The pics of me before 6am. -_-

Early morning...

I really do not know. I slept early last night, but when I woke up an hour ago, my body felt tired. And currently it still is.

I thought to myself: are my dreams related to this body soreness?
I just had two dreams running in my sleep. They might be unrelated to each other. Hahah.

2010. I never really care about the figures.

And yeah, I forgot to tell that I'm a student at Jerudong International School. Cheers (as Ian usually says).

This feelings! XD

Oh no. 2010. Crap.

Random say: I really, really admire her. Beautiful.

Reality: This world is cruel, but fair. It is a fate to be able to meet her, but then she seems to be a punishment for me.

We are quite the opposite of each other, physically. I'm not sure about mentally, though. (Western and Eastern collide, wow...)

Here I am, sitting on my bed, thinking about her as I type. I don't want to go wishy-washy here (no 'jiwang' please...), I just wanted to tell this for my own sake. Who knows, whether my feelings change, just like the past. Whether my feeling of love is something that just passes by my eyes.

I can never know what genuine love feels like.

P.s. I do know the love of families and friends. :D

Me, the Profile pics

2010. You should see the 'wanted' pics of me. :P